I'm in emotional and social trap. Whatever I want to do, I have to seek validation and permission from people around me. I could not be able to go with my instinct. What should I do?

Emotional people are a gift to society, they see or feel what others cannot even sense. They win hearts easily because of their caring attitude. But often taken for granted as In your case. What you allow will prevail, your concern itself is a sign of your awareness, you know that you are suffering, stop sharing your secrets with people around you and go as you like. Don't be the football of others' opinions. People play or mess with soft toys, not with electricity. You also have that current in you, just discover it.